A Short Personal Story : Overcoming Obstacles, Learning Lessons, Becoming Limitless (Part 1)
This is my story in short, my journey to being where I am, a guide, a connector, and a consciousness and vibration lifter.
I wasn’t always a Transformational Coach. It took many years to come to this point and I am happy to be connecting with you here and to share my story with you. Grab yourself a cuppa and let’s get comfortable.
I come from the Czech Republic, before it became the Czech Republic, a tiny dot in the middle of Europe, nested between Germany, Poland, Austria and Slovakia. Born during the communistic regime in the late 70’s, I always considered I had a fairly good childhood. I was growing up with both parents (at least until their messy divorce when I was 9), I was clothed, I had food to eat and I went to school.
My parents were products of their own traumas and abuse growing up and in the 80’s it wasn’t really a norm to “work on yourself.” It wasn’t even on people’s radar…
My mother quickly jumped into another relationship following the divorce. I guess she couldn’t be alone, perhaps she couldn’t process what happened and instead she made herself very busy in a new relationship with a widower and father of two children himself.
I loved spending time with my “new family” and think of the 4 years that the relationship lasted as my most happy time in my childhood. Our days were filled with adventures of foraging in the forest, climbing trees and riding our bikes around town. It all came to a halt. Three teenagers and my 9-year-old brother were too much to bear for my mother, as her boyfriend spent more and more time at work or out, leaving her to look after the whole household alone. We ended up on our own again and with that move, I guess my trust in men as role models and protectors was crushed. In a very short period I lost two “fathers.” The third guy who came along, although a lovely and kind-hearted human being, didn’t stand a chance of winning me over as a stepdaughter.
By then I was already a troubled teen. I had no idea how to process my crazy emotions and I have not had a chance to grieve the losses I experienced. I have been through quite a ride. To me everything was happening so fast and I didn’t have a clue how to slow it down. My childhood was cut short by the very lengthy and draining divorce. My mother was trying her best to “keep the family together” when my father didn’t want to be in the relationship anymore. Looking back now, I realise she was scared of losing control. She channeled her frustration and sorrow into me and I became her “therapist”, her listening ears. She had no friends to confide in and I think she was very lonely at that time.
Without realising it, I had to grow up very fast, as there was no one to hold me, listen to me, or comfort me and I had to do this for the grown ups. I ploughed through my life cheerful and happy on the outside. Inside I was hurting, I was troubled and I realise, traumatised. My father was physically and psychologically abusive. I think I was actually relieved when he left. Little did I know, my mother would start to physically abuse me as well.
Although I was trying to connect with her partner, I couldn’t bring myself to do it. He was so besotted with her, he agreed to anything and everything she did and said and unfortunately, her never stood up for me when she was being abusive. I had no respect for him at the time.
I just couldn’t catch a break.
My teen years were a strange and crazy period. Looking back I realise I was seeking love and affection I never had at home, love and affection I didn’t know how to find, how to get and I started “buying” it from boys and men. I lost my dignity, jumping from one boyfriend to another, I was quite promiscuous, drinking a lot of alcohol and escaping my reality however I could at the time.
It was after a series of car accidents in my 20’s I have realised I needed to make changes in my lifestyle before I would spiral into self destruction. With the help of a wonderful Naturopath I started to heal my body and slowly mind, It opened a path for me - a journey of healing that I have been walking, sometimes limping, sometimes running on to this day… I have never given up in my search of finding the next step, next level of healing and shifting myself to be a better version of myself. I know now it is my life mission to do this and along the way share my knowledge, my gifts and experience with people who want achieve their best potential in life, gain better health and wealth. It is not a coincidence you are reading these words, our paths were perhaps meant to meet at this time.
Our childhood experiences, especially ones lived before our 7th year of life, can create distorted view of life in general, negative beliefs and barriers for our life going forward and the traumas if unhealed affect our daily actions, our view of others, life, relationships and how we experience of our reality.
Healing our traumas is an incredibly important aspect of our future as humanity and I wholeheartedly believe we will make a great leap in our evolution, if we focus on kindness, gratitude and being mindful of our environment and other people in our daily lives.
